Today Dora turned 12 years old which translates to an impressive 84 dog years! Dora is still a sweet, spry, spunky dog and I love her enough to continue to talk in an embarrassing baby voice even when others are around. Others, I’m sorry.
In the morning, when I get up, Dora bounces around like a little puppy and waits for her breakfast. Then as I have coffee she sits on my lap and dozes. Mornings are our special time.
The treats are made with Peanut Butter, Pumpkin, and Whole Wheat Flour, so yeah, we all ate some. M and R picked out the cookie cutters based on Dora’s adventures and predilections. Squirrels because Dora loves to chase them, dandelions because she will eat them, a bear because Dora was lost in the forest with bears, etc.
Today I told Dora how special she was and how happy I am that she is part of our family. She smiled at me and gave me lovey eyes the whole time I was talking. I think she would have liked it if I’d continued even longer!
Happy Birthday, Dora Mae. I hope we get to celebrate many, many more!!!!
Salvation Mountain reminded me of outsider art in the town where I grew up, Grandma Prisbrey’s Bottle Village. Although I spent hours upon hours as a teenager driving through my little town searching for remnants of history (including an old stagecoach-era bordello I’d heard was on the city’s outskirts), I managed to miss Grandma Prisbrey’s place. Happily, the Cartigan clan and our friend Joseph remedied that sad state of affairs when we trekked out to Simi Valley and attended one of Bottle Village’s infrequent tours. It was more interesting than most of the things I’d found on my teenage rambles combined (I never did find the Bordello).
Our fun began at the entrance where we could see some of Prisbrey’s bottle and headlight sculptures, as well as the beginning of a mosaic pathway that leads across the long narrow property.
The walkway mosaics were my favorite part of her array of structures and art installments. My girls and I spent most of our time looking for all the funny and unusual things Tressa had included. Of her mosaic floors, Prisbrey wrote “Everything that you can imagine is in the floor, and lot’s that you can’t.” We found ghostly imprints of things that have since gone missing. M and R’s favorite was the imprint of a toy horse, with yellow legs still intact.
Prisbrey used to drive her Studebaker pickup to the Santa Susana dump daily to collect materials for her home. Locals also remember her pulling a red wagon filled with bottles for her projects. Prisbrey told a story of driving her Studebaker home from the dump and being pulled over by a policeman who asked her if she had a permit to be carrying the load she was hauling. Prisbrey didn’t. She told him she didn’t have a working horn, working headlights or a driver’s license either. I’m guessing that’s when the little red wagon came in.
Prisbrey’s guilty pleasure was her doll collection. According to one article, she visited her dolls in the house she constructed for them each morning. Prisbrey’s bottle buildings are a rainbow of beauty but I cannot describe her doll collection as anything but creepy, creepy, CREEPY and not just because they have been sitting out in the elements for three decades… Doll heads stuck on knitting needles are creepy from the get go!
Inside Prisbrey’s largest structure, once beautiful Miss Havisham-like dolls remain and one has been decorated with old aluminum can pull tops. It looked to me like a dress of keys. I am fascinated with Prisbrey’s ability to engage and create within an imaginary world. How did she see those silver curls? Were they simply light catching and pretty? A poor woman’s rhinestone? Or something else, maybe scales on a mermaid dress, or shimmering leaves on the mother tree. Or perhaps they are like Milagros and each one is a prayer to the Madonna.
This is also where some of Prisbrey’s remaining pencil collection is stored. These pencils are said to have been the tinder that ignited Prisbrey’s passion for building. She wanted a place outside of her trailer to display the 4,000 plus pencils she collected while working in politics in North Dakota. Not only did she mount them on boards of different shapes and sizes, she hung them from trees, displayed them in toothbrush holders, and covered a lamp shade with them. DIY, y’all!!!
Prisbey’s original fire screen is mostly gone, but the strings hanging down in front of the fire-place used to have glass I.V. bottles and gold beads on them. You can see a heap of crumbled wall and bottles to the left of the fireplace. The Northridge Earthquake badly damaged Prisbrey’s buildings and some are gone entirely.
What her buildings lacked in infrastructure she made up for with her unique presentation. Ceilings were draped with swaths of fabric salvaged from the dump. She even used shower curtains on the ceilings. Horseshoes were nailed to door frames, pencils and bottles dangled from wire tomato cages. Her creativity knew no bounds. She even decorated her cats. By brushing her fluffy kittens with vegetable dye she created her “Technicolor kittens.” Reader, that sounds like one of the cutest things ever.
In the reflection of the window above, some condos are visible but when Prisbrey moved in her property neighbored a turkey farm! According to our tour guide, Prisbrey wanted to keep some of the dust and feathers (and general ugliness of turkeys) out of her yard, so she built her first bottle fence and topped it with Mrs. Butterworth’s bottles.
Volunteers now keep Prisbrey’s property maintained. It is clear that much of it has been lost or had to be removed after the Northridge quake but a fair amount remains, and as you can see in some of the photos, they have kept all of the unbroken bottles on the property with hopes of rebuilding some of Prisbrey’s lost work.
In and around this headlight planter grow succulents and cactus that Prisbrey planted during her years there. Although she was not terribly fond of cactus, she knew they would grow whether she watered them or not. She wrote “They remind me of myself. They are independent, prickly, and ask for nothing from anybody.” She had hundreds of different varieties and said that once, they all bloomed on Mother’s Day. Prisbrey was a mother of seven and survived six of her children. Perhaps these buildings became her therapy. Through her losses and despite her age she continued to build and create.
Prisbrey’s artwork is a California Historical Landmark, a Ventura County Cultural Landmark, and has historic designation from the City of Simi Valley but it is difficult to say how long it will be around. Members of the non-profit Preserve Bottle Village hope to rebuild the site but it’s difficult to imagine a way to recreate Tressa’s eccentric charm without her vision. It is sad to think about losing Bottle Village, but there is also something comforting about being able to slowly let it go over time, as it gives in to gravity, plate tectonics, and the elements. Just as Grandma Prisbrey did, just as her children did, just as we all will do.
And when we do, I hope we’ll all get to live in that great Bottle Village in the Sky where all are welcome, and the discarded is once again prized. And there are technicolor kittens.
I’m tracing my connection back to my father when I go to the desert. I can be quiet there. One of my best friends told me he understood me much better after meeting my father. I assume he began to understand the introverted part of me, The Hermit. It’s the part of me that loves to be alone and holed up in a cave. Or driving in silence for hours through beautiful and desolate landscapes.
It surprises me to find this part of myself, the part that feels so at home in the middle of so little. In those formative years of adolescence I imagined I would be very different – very social, very graceful. I have grown into a very different sort of person and I can say with an immense amount of gratitude, I am happy with the unusual, quiet, often awkward, very human and well-intentioned person that I am.
The desert seems to welcome this sort of person. The awkward and well-intentioned have a history of seeking the solitude and solace of the desert. It feels like the land will wrap her mountainous arms around you, and only you, when you are there.
I don’t know if this is what Leonard Knight loved about the desert but I definitely count him in the ranks of the awkward and well-intentioned and he certainly found his place in the desert. His remarkable creation, Salvation Mountain, is well worth the pilgrimage to middle-of-nowhere-Niland, California.
My dad told me about Leonard Knight and Salvation Mountain years ago, after his own first visit. A self-admitted atheist (I can sometimes cajole him to concede agnostic/atheist), my dad is not the type one might expect to visit Salvation Mountain but he is the one who first ignited my desire to visit. Then I started to see references to it here and there — a visit in Into The Wild, photos on A Beautiful Mess.
And so somehow this year of great loss and great joy, I knew it was time to make the trek. I knew it in the way I love and appreciate the most because it is such a rare thing: I just knew.
I expected to find a riot of cake-icing color in a sea of sand and sage. Perhaps the displacement was part of the call although I would have wanted to see this candy mountain of bible verse and folk art anywhere. The attraction to the strangeness of it, however, did not prepare me for the way I felt when I arrived and stood at the base of the fifty-foot mountain. I marveled at it, and then I started to feel something. A wave of something. The impulse to cry. To cry? This caught me by surprise! I slowed down and tried to understand what was passing over and through me. And reader, the thing, I think, was a great humility and joy. I was small, standing in front of an adobe mountain made by one man emboldened by passion and a belief in the goodness of what he was creating. It is a simple and effusive way of creating and sharing joy.
It seems important to share, before I go further with my experience of having feelings at Salvation Mountain, that I also identify as Agnostic and find myself leaning ever closer to Agnostic/Atheist. I was prepared to be there to appreciate a thing of beauty, not to feel validated about my experience of what is greater than I. I don’t like the term “sinner.” It reads as synonymous with “failure” to me and that starts us down the rabbit-hole of my personal cosmology; another subject entirely. What I’m trying to say is that I didn’t expect to find much in common with Mr. Knight’s beliefs but I found myself loving his mountain. I loved the feeling of being transported into a magical new place, a place that welcomes people to wander up the yellow brick road, past imaginary waterfalls, and through forests of trees that espouse traits of gentleness, goodness, and peace.
I loved walking into what felt like a hive constructed of adobe with skylights made of car windshields and door windows that sunlight shone down through. I loved all the references to love and being loved. My favorite message was painted on one of the beautified cars “God. Is. Love. I love you also.” Suddenly conceptual became personal. I felt gently loved in the space, celebrated in a way I imagine I might feel if I had a belief in what some call God. It was a really nice feeling and I started to wonder about it. A lot.
This stranger created a space where I felt special. Loved. Surrounded by beauty that he created in an effort to help others find a personal connection to God: a greater sense of meaning and a feeling of being valued. And he did it with desert clay and old house paint.
In one of his interviews (I’ve watched them all obsessively now — has anyone yet extolled the virtues of minor obsessions? Perhaps in a future post…) Leonard says that people seem to feel good when they visit his mountain. I felt that too, before I knew much about who he was or why he made what he did. His interviews are wonderful, by the way. I could hardly believe the interviews Huell Howser did with Leonard because both men are bubbling over with excitement — Huell’s excitement about discovering Leonard’s creation and Leonard’s excitement about sharing Salvation Mountain. I’m trying now to recall if I’ve ever seen two grown men more happily engaged in conversation about something they both love, and are unafraid to show such affection for. I don’t think I have. Have you?
When I returned home and shared my experience of visiting Salvation Mountain, my dad said he was sorry that Leonard was no longer there. Leonard died in February 2014 and some of his ashes were returned to the “technicolor mountain” he built. It was upon my homecoming that I began to reflect on how I’d felt at the mountain. I watched all the YouTube videos I could find of the Mountain and Leonard. The more I watched, the more touched I felt by who Leonard was as a person and how so many have been impacted by his art. Then the question of how I contribute to our culture arose. How can I share something that will help others feel celebrated and loved? I am not religious, so I cannot make promises of God’s love. The closest I can get is to say that I believe in the power of our individual uniqueness. I believe that our own unlikely combinations of traits and thoughts and perspectives make us valuable beyond measure. It’s a sort of Mr. Roger’s take on the world — I like you just the way you are, because of who you are. Your authenticity makes the world a better and richer place. That is the message I would like to share. I’m still not sure how that message will make it out into the world. Leonard’s original plan was to do it via hot air balloon. How magical is that?
Have you had the experience of being unexpectedly bowled over by something beautiful? Or loving? or both? Do you wonder about how to bring beauty and love to others, or how to enrich it? Or maybe you don’t wonder about it because you are already doing it? I would love to hear from you.
It’s happened. It’s no surprise, really. The funny thing is that it has taken me this long to get started on some sort of album/scrapbook/memory book. Or maybe it’s not funny at all, considering I’ve been running around after these cunning girls for the past four-and-a-half years. In any case, I finally caught the fever and it’s the Project Life (or “ProLi” as I like to call it because it amuses me) variety. It’s marketed as the fast and easy version of scrapbooking but I’ve managed to complicate things already. You buy a book, filler pages, and a kit of cards and if you’re not me, throw a week’s worth of pictures together in mere minutes. If you are me, you buy a partial set of cards and then use them as a template and cut pages out of magazines to use as backgrounds and gather materials from all your old projects and spend hours on each week’s layout.
Two of my favorite bloggers have ProLi projects they post about regularly. Elise Blaha creates very beautiful, modern pages filled with her gorgeous photography. Her pages feel like meditations. She has also designed a line of journaling cards for ProLi… No surprise.
And Cameron’s blog Krug the Thinker, proves that ProLi can be done without throwing down a bunch of cash for a kit and its many accessories. I LOVE that kind of creativity and resourcefulness!
So, based on those two models of excellence, I bought myself an old-school album at my favorite thrift store.
It came with these photo pages which I’d originally planned on using but have since ditched in favor of the ProLi official pages. At first I’d thought I could use them both together but my measuring skills were on vacation the day I calculated the pages to be the same size. Boo.
So here’s my first attempt at a layout. I had some great input from my friend Bee, who encouraged me to let myself be scrappy rather than minimalist with this. Despite loving Elise’s design, I tend to be more of a collector and this layout felt much more me once I’d started cutting and punching and layering.
Another piece of it that makes this project time-consuming is the way I work. This is what happens whenever I try to do a page:
I even brought out the hair spray!!!
Reader beware! ProLi is highly contagious as is evidenced by M and R’s recent projects:
Before you know it, you may be dreaming about sliding photos and journaling cards into cute little slots in album pages!
Are you journaling or scrap booking? How do you keep up with it? I’m afraid I’ll lose steam with this and abandon it around week 20, which would be ok too. 19 weeks of organized photos is better than what I’ve got now.
Mr. Cartigan called me over to the bathroom with that something-very-cute-has-happened-and-as-a-parent-you-need-to-see-it tone of voice. When I peeked, I saw the vignette pictured above.
“Oh.” I said flatly. “Is that cute?” I’d seen it earlier and all I could think was ‘Thanks a lot girls, for another random mess for me to sort out. As if I didn’t have anything else to do. Or five other piles of little things you’ve collected from other parts of the house and then left. I can’t wait to re-sort your clip collection.’
“It’s totally cute!” he assured me.
“Huh… Really?” I’d seen the girls hovering over this collection earlier, working on it together very congenially.
“…Okay.” I walked slump-shouldered to grab my phone and take a picture.
I had to take his word for it.
A day later, when I was feeling less overwhelmed, I asked the girls about it.
“We had to take all our clips down to count them!” They said cheerfully.
“Oh?” Said I.
They have 23 clips, according to R. I’m not sure what the lip gloss counts towards.
Now I can sort of see it. It was a little easier to see after Mr. Cartigan graciously put all the clips away for me. (Really we should have had the girls do that but give me a break people, this stuff is exhausting.)
And so I leave it to you, dear readers, to determine for yourselves if barrette collecting on the commode is indeed the stuff cuteness is made of.
I like to talk the talk (“Oh my God! She lets her kids eat ______???!!!! Does she know how much _______ is in that???!!!”). And I know how to walk the walk (“Yes, you can have that juice-sweetened carob-chip cookie after you finish your lima beans and quinoa.”)
But sometimes, I hand my kids Lunchables. And they are so happy.
The rumors were true! We did get little chick chicks (and yes, as I am typing this, my internal voice is two octaves higher than normal. They’re so cute!!!) We brought home four chickens from a nearby feed store. Two are Buff Orpingons (“Diamond” and “Christmas Day”), one is a Welsummer (“Runaway Chicken”), and one is a Light Brahma (“Mama Brahma White Pajama”). Though the guides I read recommend keeping chicks of different ages separate, we eded up with a flock of chicks ranging from one week to three weeks and it’s working out.
True to her name, Mama is the oldest, biggest, and bossiest. Christmas Day and Diamond, the babies, like to follow her around (in fact, they were all housed together in the feed store). And don’t tell my kids, ’cause she’s M’s chick: Runaway Chicken is my favorite. She spends a good amount of time looking around and checking things out. She’s also the best forager and when we let the chicks play on our lawn, Runaway Chicken finds the best wild treats. While the Orpingtons follow Mama around, Runaway Chicken blazes her own trail. I like that in a chicken.
I hesitated to share an update about our four poppy plants. Though my aim is to keep it real here on Humble Pie, I just couldn’t bring myself to show you the four little sun-baked poppy plant skeletons after espousing my great love for them. Watch out for Hillary, her love kills!!
I kind of expected Mr. Cartigan to transplant them because he’s the gardener and I’m guessing he thought I’d do it, since I’m the poppy-crazed one. See how good our communication is? I promise we do feed and water the kids regularly.
Mr. Cartigan kept those little poppy skeletons around, though I couldn’t figure out why and yesterday I was watering plants and noticed this:
Hurrah! The poppies are making a comeback!!!
So now that two are revived I am heartened enough to say, my love only half-kills and it is possible to survive it.